Мама категорична: "муженек твой тот еще пьяница и тунеядец"

Mom is categorical: "your husband is still a drunkard and a parasite"

I have been married for almost seven years, but lately I have been thinking more and more about divorce. I'm afraid to talk to him about our relationship.

We practically don't talk about the two of us, because I'm afraid of his reaction. He always had an unsweetened character, but I learned to accept my husband as he is.

But lately I feel that we have become estranged from each other, he often stays late at work, comes home in the evening, sometimes drunk.

- There is a blockage at work, we work like horses, because the boss has gone on vacation, and we have deadlines and reports here. Drank after a hard day with colleagues what's wrong? - in this spirit, he answers my questions.

But if it was once or twice a month, I would still understand. But recently, he leaves in the morning, returns by 11 pm, almost always drunk. He tells about the boss and colleagues and goes to bed. I feel that something is wrong here. But I'm just afraid of him when he's in this state. I know perfectly well what he is like when he drinks.

The only time I found the strength to quarrel with him was when he came just drunk in the middle of the night last week and started insulting me. We started fighting, but I saw how he was losing his temper, how his eyes were turning red and I was just afraid of what he could do in such a state.

He never hit me,believe me - I will quickly pack all my things and fly out of the apartment in the same second, if this ever happens. But I feel that I should just put up with his behavior, so as not to provoke him. I think he really became very violent.

I just can't sleep properly from anger and resentment, and in the morning, when he starts to get ready for work, I tell him everything that has boiled over. To which he responds:

- I don't remember anything like that, I didn't mean to offend you. I'm sorry, I really will try to improve and drink less, but you understand this situation at work... I love you, I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend.

And then usually next week he is quieter than water below the grass. Sometimes even a flower can be bought when it feels that it has gone too far.

And I forgive, and for a while I get it into my head that he didn't want to and that he will really change, etc. I feel trapped, because he does a lot of his work and he really often has a blockage there, I learned from his colleagues. That's why I'm trying to support him.

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But from time to time, when such situations are repeated, when he shouts at me drunk again, I think - damn it, what am I doing! Surely this is not how marriage should look like, I should not listen to it and be afraid!

But I still love him! And often I convince myself that I should not be offended, I justify it. Or maybe I should just have the courage to tell him at least once:

- Stop it! I've had enough, you have no right to behave like this if you really love me! I don't want to take it anymore! I'm packing up my things and leaving if you don't change!

I've been thinking about moving more and more recently. To leave everything and go to my mother, she told me for a long time that " your husband is still a drunkard and a parasite." But something always stops me at the last moment. I don't know what to do. I'm confused.

What would you do?

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